Am almost caught up with readings for one class. The others loom. I decided somewhere along the way that I like the frantic, heart palpitation-inducing stress of finishing my paper at 3:29 so that I'll have that one minute margin to sprint it to the professor's office on the third floor of the building two blocks away. This wasn't a concious decision, but I haven't enough willpower at the moment to change it.
All three of my lovely roommates are blowing with the wind to various parts within the next few weeks, while I will stay on to triage my educational career. It's not that bad, according to my advisor, but I've been royally knocked off my "impervious to failure" pedestal. It's about time, I guess. High school pursuaded me that studying wasn't usually necessary, and it's taken till now for college to convince me otherwise. So this summer I'll be sitting in a hole getting to know my organic chem book intimately, and eating from time to time. With the content of two o-chem quarters compressed into eight weeks instead of twenty, I'm forecasting an exam each week or so. Mmm...tasty.
I need roommates, though I don't expect to see them much in my hole. Lindsay (Saralita's old and future roomie and all-around awesome girl) says she can stay for a month or two, but I've yet to hear from Jenny (my old and hopefully future roomie who's off exploring France at the moment), so I may be begging old acquaintances and those I don't know at all to come live with me. Should be a good time to get my pursuasive powers honed.
With this extra dose of edumication prescribed over the summer I've been chewing and mulling about Biochem. Why am I in this major? Did I ever really like Gen Chem, or my run-in with O Chem? Not as much as physics and calc, if I recall. Actually, I only liked being able to do them, and do them well. I didn't have to put in that much effort to get good results. But I'm not interested in being a physicist or mathematician - I wanna be a Biochem major, dammit. It just seems right. I'm not sure whether I'm just scared to really consider other majors, or whether I'm being...intuitive? I won't know till afterwards. Or if a coconut hits me on the head and I wise up.
Biochem (or any chem, evidently :P) is the challenge that I...need?...was looking for? I'm just being a pansy and moaning about it. It's hard. Other people can do it, though, and I want/am going to be one of them...after this summer, when I miraculously get my act together. Have I ever mentioned how much I enjoy my advisor? She pretty much reads me like a book, tells me to shape up (kindly), and tells me why it's not so bad and how this, this, and this are all I need to do to be on track. I feel lucky to have her advising me, since she's the main Biochem professor and I'll be seeing a lot of her in two years. By then I hope I'll have figured out how to be a good student.
My ponytail is just long enough to put high on my head and whip around like a helicoptor propeller blade. I missed that. :D